Its like this: My heart is the center of feelings And mafrood howa ely bey7ess. And mind is center of perception w howa ely beyefham. My heart understands the language of my mind, It can interpret understanding into feelings. My mind knows am special in so many ways And my heart understands this completely and help me feel so. But my mind doesn't always understand what my heart says. So when the cycle is triggered off by a fealing Not a thought It has no idea what the feeling means. I had a feeling. I wasn't sure what it means. My mind translated it into saying that I feel I'm not special I feel I'm not acknowledged or appreciated. But I can't trust how the mind explains my heart because it doesn't speak its language.

First Moisversaire!

Hey everyone, just felt the need to write over this post, because, believe it or not! IT'S BEEN A MONTH NOW! My blog has been active for exactly 30 days right now started on the 27th of May, and here we come! Thanks to all your support (I mean by that moral support of course :D) and thanks for taking the time to read the nonsense I type over here! :D

Quite a short post, just for the celebration! I've got 2 posts in progress (WIP:D) so be a bit optimistic to see some new posts around quite soon God's willing.

Comments are more than appreciated, specially since my blog lack their significant presence!

Thanks again everyone, cya later in upcoming posts!

Peace out!

Black & White!

Life really is, with all the colors it paints, just made up of shades of gray! The curves of our lives are very much bouncing between the uplifting and the rather depressing points we pass through. That's how it goes on, as a roller-coaster, some say. But is it not beautiful how these mix together?! I guess it is, just as smart as the tuxedo to my right here is, which because of the contrast just shines clearly and flashes to your eyes!

Maybe us humans, being members of a highly intellectual breed, we in a way or another seek perfection! The standards we adopt in order to reach that point of self-satisfaction vary greatly; but in the end, we all (at least) want to do what we think is best, what we think is most suitable and correct for our sakes!

However, beauty is not just found in the glamorous moments of life, when love, peace and happiness (the greatest three) endure; It's also found in the breaking! "Beauty from pain" is the message "Superchic[k]" deliver through their song! And it really is true! How can you wake up in the morning if you haven't been sleeping at night?! How can you enjoy summer if winter was abandoned from the calendar!?! I would say that it's quite hard for us to enjoy the best bits of life, if we never knew what they meant, and we can never know that unless we miss them!

Black is one way to hide your faults, when transparency is not desired! But does it not let you think?! When you're all covered in black, don't you figure out what you really need to do so that you can get rid of that?! It helps! It's the darker moments of life that help us to change, develop, and evolve into more mature and reasonable humans! If your life was to be bright all the time, you'd never wanted to change! A change that we need to cope up with the constantly changing natures of our lives, and to drive the graphs plotting our personal growths upwards!

So we can come to conclude that life is made up of the mix of both, it's the highs and lows we go through that lead to the perfection of our LifeSongs! That makes me thank God for the bright, white and sunny days of my life; but thank him too for the less wanted darkness we might pass through. Because it's the mix of both that results in whatever beauty is to be found down deep in our souls.

However, as this tuxedo , our lives become themselves sewed textures of black and white threads stitched together, that's to say that every downfall accompanied by all the merits someone's done make up our personalities! Make up who we ARE! I might have done a mistake or two, but that's just the black tie I wear, and all the kindness and good values I hold in me make up the white shirt! So would you chose to wear me?! No matter how black I've got, or how plane I may be?! Would you accept my downfalls that are part of who I am?! Or would you just despise these truths about me and let them put you off?!

The truth is, no matter what, we all are shades of gray! You may've got the white coat, but you have to wear what's black to match up with it! And whether or not you accept those stuff in me that might be less appealing to you than the others, I will accept yours! I've always had, and I always will!!

Incarnation of the beast: Memory Flashbacks!

Flowing back and forth, come those overwhelming memories of the experiences we had in life! And as ocean waves, some are huge, some are barely felt, some are tough and crash over the rocks of our minds real hard, while the others just pass by as a smooth tingle barely tickling the feet of our souls! Now we think, based on the famous and vastly adopted theology about life, that it's repetitive, I mean by that "What goes around just comes around!" What if our lives were just reincarnations of others' in relation to the people surrounding us! What if by the laws of Karma, our deeds are very much of theirs, and theirs are just duplicates of ours!?!

(N.B: Am christian as I previously mentioned, and I neither believe in re-incarnation nor in the laws of Karma or Jainism, New Age in general, am just using them as expressions in the aim of clarifying my point of view, sorry if any of you was offended!)

I have to mention that each and every one of us is a unique piece of art! However, as the greatest of artists, our God did leave a fingerprint or two of His' that're consistent in us all! It's those markings that define our genus!

My fear is, though, if I have to be like you in a way or another, in what way will we be similar!?! Will I have to share you the weaknesses, or can I chose some of the better qualities to reflect?! I'm sorry, but I've found out that it's not really in our hands to define! It's more or less not customizable! It's probably out of our hands how we are viewed by others, and it perfectly is utterly not for us to chose how we compare to others, in a third person's eyes!

I haven't made my point clear yet, and I'll need to illustrate what I mean a bit more, although I need to keep my vagueness yet for the sake of my art, and somethings else!

To cut a long story short, I'm mainly talking here about a personal experience, and my experience could be defined by a play! In that play, we need three actors; 1. who is me, 2. someone else, 3. the third party! The play is a silent conversation, but through the silence, one question arise, in me! The question simply is, "Does the actor number 3, sees anything of me in common with number 2?!" That's very much it! And that's what my whole post is, and is to be talking about.

Am afraid that in my innocence (and oblivious unconsciousness) I've done what I've never wanted to! What someone else's done before! And by that, I've deepened an already deep wound even more! I regret how things have ever gone that way, but to me, it's already happened! The problem now is, and the main problem with the whole thing, is that am not sure if that's what you really think of me, and I can never be that sure, can never know if I really did what that somebody's done before, or whether if I was just hallucinating?! Just driven by other people's words?!!

What really amazes me is that, in case my latter words were just true, and in case what's going on is what I really think is going on, then you too will be viewed in my eyes as someone else, someone of previous (now ancient) acquaintance! Still, there's something in common, that makes both options a bit less desired in both our views! Those people of which we previously knew, haven't left that much of good tracks of their deeds in our minds, breaking our hearts!

Here comes it all, do you want to see me as that person you thought of, will you be to me as that someone I speak of?! Will it all just happen again?! Can't we not escape from those memories, be free of them?! Live our lives on our own?! Decide for ourselves how it's to be done?! Or is it that our minds are so primitive, that we can't plan our future without having to go through this whole thing again and again?! I'm not sure if my feelings are true, am not sure if that's what really is happening, but I trust God for paving the road in front of me, and blessing the "Broken Road" I've passed!

Ghosts of those spirits who once interluded with ours now take the chance to haunt our thoughts! Mine in special! I know I shouldn't let that happen, but what can I do when I can't see your eyes?! How can I know what you see!? How can I know where you're going if your feet, and their paths are hidden from my sight?! Ghosts of our spirits that once shared their lives, now take the chance to set apart, to be free! We know that things like that fade, even what could be of more strength and stronger in terms of depth comes to a point at which it dissolves, diminish and just goes astray! Far behind, behind the point of no return, when no more words can fix what's left, and no more bricks can build what's felt! There, I don't wanna go! Here I'd stay, in the reassurance of that warmth I feel! Yet, it's hard for me to ignore all the stars at night, and just be led by what the moon lights! Hard, but I shall sacrifice, in order to keep that going, and to keep it right!

I decide to no longer follow the rays collected by your retina, but instead, follow those that I see by mine! I don't wanna be captivated by what I think you think of me, although it does matter to me too much. Instead, I'll be captured by what you say you think of me! God has made us to live life, and has given us our lives so that of everything happening in the time they consume we can reform our thoughts and be relieved of what's been holding us back! Although it would hold great sorrow and sadness to my soul (that of which is beyond explanation), but even if what we hold did vanish one day, I shall learn (not that it will be easy, but that's what I shall do) how to use that for my future success, and not weep on my past failure! Again I insist, I don't want that to happen, I work on not letting that to happen, but if God had another opinion, then I won't let our spirits haunt us for the remainder of whatever lifetimes we've got to live on this good Earth! The Earth that really is cursed!

(P.S: One person may understand those words I've written, and it's the very person I don't want this post to be read by!)

Thoughts of Freedom!

Deeply missing and loving people, I start to wonder what's keeping me from them?! Limited are us humans, with every chances of liberty looked up to as an essential need. A wandering mind can never feel anything more emphatic than another persons'. What if those cages were vanished, would the bonds between us not be stronger?!! Our souls (or at least mine) seek that state of fleshiness with passionate desire. I'd very much want to roam the earth with you, never separate, never hesitate, and never have to wonder where you are, how you're doing! "I love you more than I do love myself," I once said, to that am being true, but what if me and you were the same person, the same being, sharing the same spirit! O dreaming of that would not heal the ache inside, but it sure does show me how I feel! "I want to be free of you as obviously you are free of me," I quote Alexandre Dumas from his great drama "The Counte of Monte Cristo". Solitude I find in 3 things nonetheless. One, is that I know you do love me, to that I hold, and trust! Two, is that I know you have passed through this too, "My heart is like wax. It has melted within me," you once said (Psalm 22:14). "I have been there" is the song I remember right now as I write, Mark Schultz is the artist! And yeah Lord, You "have been there" before. Finally, I look forward to that day when we might finally get liberated of all that hinders our connection, all that halts our union! To that day I look, of it I dream, and with excitement I perspire! Hope is all I can rely on right now, along with all my believes. I would finally say it once more, I know am being quite repetitive, but it's all I've got to say; I LOVE YOU!

Listening to music, which has already lifted me up!
Studying for my exam tomorrow, tired and sleepy.

Picky Post: Updates of our garden

Breakfast Today

Hungry was I! 8-10 a.m. was the duration of my class! 6:45 O'clock in the morning was the timing of my awakening!

In rush I forgot my hunger, along with many things else, like brushing my teeth! Got to get ready real quick as it takes around 35 minutes driving to school. Dressed up in my uniform, I guess I was ready for school! Dad was going to drop me by on his way to work, which is always a good thing as he's a fast driver!

Late, as usual, I arrived to school at 7:10, but thank God the teacher hasn't started yet! After spending 2 hours of complete boredom, inattention and lots of murmuring, it was time for me to leave school! Hanged out for a while with friends I've got there, and once again I hit the road, on feet this time! Usually I go back by local means of transportation, which is neither that comfortable nor that safe, but considerably quick (if I was lucky, could get back home in 20 mins!).

However, some nervous transmission is received by my brain! Through the Vegas nerve I guess, my stomach was basically complaining its hunger to my CNS (central nervous system)! Haven't had breakfast yet, now I remember. So quickly I pick up the phone and rang my mother, bad news I heard, we were all out of food! I'm on my own now, I had to get something to eat on my way back, or otherwise I would've been starving until now!

Umm... now I need to reveal another fact to you people out there! I'm in fact Egyptian. In other words, I do live in Egypt, Cairo is my hometown and place of residence, something that I may be both proud and ashamed of in the same time!

In Egypt, Cairo to be more specific, there are various fast-food restaurants that offer greatly and continuously loved foods! Cook Door, Hardee's, Wesaya, Quick, KFC, Amo-Hosny, Pizza Hut, MacDonald's, Mo'men along with many others are pioneers in this industry here in Egypt! Fortunately enough, my school is placed right in the middle of one of the busiest centers which include shops for most of the mentioned restaurants! I mainly had to chose to dine in one of those shops!

The choice wasn't that easy nevertheless, many of these shops' working times start as late as 10 a.m, which might consequently delay my trip back home, and that's something I don't want! Yeah I know I was done with school at 10, but the problem with fast-food companies, is that it's never that fast serving the first order!

I wasn't that hungry, and for that reason many of these possible choices were filtered out as they serve relatively more greasy, fatty meals that could get you full while you're not yet half-the-way done with eating the sandwich! Here came up my choice, I decided on going to Amo-Hosny, quick, sandwiches of just the right size, and very good value for money as it doesn't use the perceived pricing policies usually adopted by other brands! People of you who don't live in Egypt needn't to bother about recognizing the shop, as you barely can! It's Egyptian! Amo-Hosny it was, but to my disgrace, they were not yet open! Half an hour, the guy at the door asked me to wait in order to issue my order!

Off we go, me and my companion who happens to be my best-friend! We decided on going back home hoping that I might be able to find something to feed on after-all! (Am a great cook in case you didn't know :D)

Passing by MacDonald's, I've thought of grabbing a Milk Shake before we hitch the road. Some would wonder why not grab a sandwich too?!! I'd answer them, I HATE MACDONALD'S! Don't worry, it's nothing personal, and I never got a disturbed stomach after eating there! It's just that -at least in Egypt, mainly in Egypt :D- Mac sandwiches never get me full! They offer much less variety of sandwiches than most of the other companies, and the taste isn't undeniable either! Moreover, the value for money is horrible! I don't believe myself when am paying 15 pounds for a sandwich that's much smaller than the palm of my hands! Well, to be honest, that would include french fries and soda too!

Well... that was my decision, but something stopped me! I suddenly recognized the new posters hanged on the shop's walls from outside! They were promotional material for the new breakfast meals endorsed. You see, we haven't had that implemented down here in Egypt! Anyways, I decided on giving it a try! Why not?! They say the sandwiches are new, healthy (which is something I admire) and that was enough to get me in!

I ordered the meal, a Sausage McMuffin sandwich meal which originally comes with Minute Made orange juice and piece of Hash Brown. The meal seemed to be very appealing and the price wasn't that bad! The usual 15.some pounds have been paid.



I sat down on a table in the corner waiting for my meal to be served, imagining how much would it satisfy me, and considering to change my opinion of MacDonald's as a change!

Finally, after approximately 15 mins (which is too long time, but considering that I may very much be one of the very first people to order was okay!) the meal was done, and served, on my table, waiting for me to go ahead and munch on it!

The first bite, which is like the first impressions, was of great taste! I loved the sandwich! The bread used was like a hybrid of Peta/Biscuit bread which tasted amazing! And I loved how the sandwich wasn't floating in ketchup, mayonaise, mustard or any dressing of the sort!

The hash brown were more than amazing, very well done, and in a taste I haven't had like in years! Add to that the juice which was perfect. To sum it up, it was a perfect meal for me, exactly what I needed!

The only problem, rather than being tiny in means of portions! The meal as I said was very expensive in comparison with its size, and how much satiate I got after eating it!

Finally, I'd advice Mac to add more to their breakfast menu, as it's been a positive-impression-leaving experience that would make me offer MacDonald's an additional star from 2-3! In my own evaluation :D

Nice meals everybody! Hope that would compensate for the pretty boring, not that well done post I just posted a few minutes ago!

Coping with Growing!

Life! how complicated, huh?!

Basically, but not solely, life consists of the moments of time passing by various living organisms, which some depict to be exclusively found on our beloved planet Earth! That would mainly include the different situations, events, and acts that affect those organisms, and are caused by them too!

One thing about life, is that it's never stable, nor consistent! Days change, changing our standards, and the laws of nature! I quote from the cute but rather perspectival animations movie "Ratatouille" "Nature IS change!"

There are lots of ways in which change could be described, examined and comprehended in our lives! One of these ways is the constant change in merely every living organism on Earth! that change is to be named "Growth."

Probably every thing (that's in a way or another to be considered as living) grows. It's fascinating really as by means of growth a human for example can experience many things of similar nature, in quite different ways, adopting different apprehensions, reactions, and thoughts of that sole thing only because of him passing through different stages of growth!

My "business studies" exam is to be held tomorrow, and a potential question could be considering what we call in business a "product life-cycle."
Our lives pass through very similar stages to these demonstrated in the figure.

Development, and that's what confuses people the most, very much probably because it's the stage that is most vague and overtly hidden off our sight. I would classify this process into two sub-stages; Early and Late Development. Early development is the very beginning of our being. I mean by that what religious people would call "creation" while antagonist atheists would name "evolution" based in their theories on "The Big Bang" event. That would be the core of all living-material found on earth, preparing and organizing everything needed for us and our comrades here to exist. It's pretty much relevant to the "product development" phase, of which R&D is to be in current progress, planning and evaluating the possible success of the product, in our case, the ability to survive!

Here we come to the Late Development stage, I've used this term to describe the initial start-up of developing an organism. As a mammal, conducting my ideas to fellow mammals :D (no-offense meant) I'll relate that to what happens in a typical mammalian case. In most of the mammalian species, a female ova awaits a male sperm in order to develop a zygote by undergoing fertilization. A few moments after, when they both fuse, mitotic cell division starts to occur. A few days later, an embryo is formed, and that embryo passes through various stages of development until the moment when he gets to see light for the first time, which is the point at which the baby would meet the introduction stage of the curve!

There is a reason why I've chosen the development stage to be separated into two; and that is because one of them is quite known to us humans, and we master the ability to manipulate and control it's happenings. In the meanwhile, the other "early" stage is quite anonymous! Some even believe it doesn't exist! Moreover, the words "early" and "late" seem very reliable for me, as according to my beliefs, and many scientific proofs, our creation, or in other words, the state of our existence has been affected by many factors that were settled quite long ago; however, it doesn't really start to happen, nor get into action, except very soon before an organism's born to life!

By the end of the late development phase, the product is now ready for introduction. Again by interlinking that to our main issue here, human growth, that would indicate the birth of a newborn! It's in this moment that we can really say that an organism has been introduced to life! Discussion would arouse here, because it's a fact that we are much more complicated in structure than other beings like plants for example! A plant passing through its introduction phase could be demonstrated by a young plumule! On the other hand, it's never that strictly agreed on when would a human being first be called alive! That's probably the reason for some of the abortion-banning debates! To get back to the main point, I would just consider the introduction phase for a human to be his/her birth!

Consequently, this being starts to grow! It begins to conceive meanings of life! Adopt thoughts, beliefs, experiences and impressions! One of the very important factors that determine how this neonate would grow-up into a full being with its full potentials and abilities openly expressed, is the surrounding conditions of which it was introduced, and allowed to grow! Things like poverty, scarcity of needed material and nutrition, feelings of insecurity, overt care and close monitoring, the chances made available for him/her to succeed and excel may very much affect it's behavioral, moral, and intellectual specifications. Of course am talking here about humans, much of the other organisms are not able to express or even adopt these values! So now you can collect ideas about that growing little person, you can actually create an impression! Many information about it is needed, questionable material is vast; but some features could typically indicate future qualities of the homo sapien in question! In the meantime, many of these features, either physical or ethical, could easily change over time! Normally, the growing kid depends on his observations, specially in his very early years! It's the assumptions that he makes about various things in life that comes to his knowledge that helps him perceive their values! Later on, this child is now liable to communicate with others, as soon as he does, he curiously develops increased interest in others' apprehensions of life values! I know I love mommey, but what does daddy say about her?! What does my sis think about her?! I like pokemon, but my friends at school like to watch spiderman more often, and the girls only watch the power-puff-girls cartoons! Why is that?! Now that cute little thing starts to get analytical, using the brain that has much developed than when it first stimulated the rib-cage to inhale!

Not only does a person grow ideas and evaluations of the surrounding world as he grow! But also, his body grows, size, shape, features, and functions of various parts of someone's body change during that stage. By the age of 21 for guys, and 18 for gals, this person has completed his/her growth stage of his/her life! However, that doesn't mean that we don't continue to adopt and develop further apprehensions of life based on our experiences, as a matter of fact, we do, and that's because us humans have got the ability to learn and conceive new principals and values based on our findings stimulated by the various experiences we go through. Maturity now is (often) a more stable phase of our life-cycle. The person now has to express merely everything he's been building-up from information, perceptions, abilities and skills developed through his growth process for his benefit! It's at this stage that most people get less concerned about their own lives, and care about others'! Usually at this age a guy for example would care more about his loved-ones and their needs, than about his! The situation's the same with a lady. This is the moment that everyone's been training for all of their lives! It's now that you have to struggle to prove your own qualities, to show everyone who you really are, and by that, you've got the chance to excel and exceed, utterly, to survive!

For most of our lives we spend sometime thinking of what would happen to us in the future! Kids are always fascinated with their future jobs; a prototype would be that of an astronaut or of a firefighter for guys, and a model for girls! Some lucky people do achieve their dreams, whether accompanied by regret or not! However, some other don't! Well... when would we stop dreaming?! When should our ambitions halt?! I would say that would be by the very end of our life-cycle charts! Literal dreaming presumably never ends until the person is claimed dead! And neither should prospective dreaming! You can never stop being ambitious until one of two possibilities, number one is being dead (as I just said), and the other would be reaching and fulfilling all your goals in life, satisfying all your needs, and as previously discussed, those of your loved ones too! Something that we've agreed upon in the beginning of our talk is that life is very versatile, "Nature is change" as previously quoted, that's why our needs do change over time! I think I made it quite clear that every moment in our lives requires different material for our satisfaction. You can never please a kid with giving him a salary (some kids would only show momental interest to that offer only because the previously positive idea endorced about salaries probably introduced by their parents), on the other hand, you can never please an adult with a kids toy (also some would show interest for some of the time, but as a matter of fact, play wouldn't satisfy their mind-consuming needs)! People Grow over time, and life does grow along too! Thus, we need to develop our ambitions, futuristic plans and objectives in order to meet up with our constantly changing (usually growing) needs; something that's often done by many people subconsciously.

Talking about decline, I'd also want to discuss it from two different point of views; but unlike the development phase, the two stages (more of two facests) that could go along simultaneously or in independent of time! Here I am to talk about physical, and morale decline. Physical decline would be very easy to explain, it's the observable fact of getting old, and slowly diminishing of a human being. That's mainly due to various problems that affect people when staying for long on Earth! Now, the decline in someone's life regarding his morale is as basic as "losing interest in growing"! We previously described the life-cycle as that of continuous growth! This would assume that someone's life would end by its decline (last stage in the cycle)! One's breath is taken away by him passing into physical decline till the end when his life is over, that's the physical decline! However, as previously depicted by myself, one's life could also end by his decline, but not physically, ambitiously! I would call my self dead if I had no future prospects, no needs that demand fulfilling, and no demands that need to be satisfied! Here is when the person is really dead! My physical death would not affect the community that much as when I lose the intent to reach self-actualization. Most of us people care more (and fear) physical decline (i.e: death) than our own selves' decline! Which as I see it, is of more importance!

Here we come to the core of my subject, and my idea! Many times we blame our childhood on how it caused us to be brought-up, our parent's on disciplining us in a non-desirable way, the chances we've got to express ourselves! But that would be most unfair! Yes, growing and the processes it involves are quite accountable for what we are now and how that is. Yet, it never ends except with our decline! As long as you're alive, you've got the chance to grow, to master and to achieve! Don't let the desire inside of you to achieve more and more fade away! Don't let yourself stop dreaming, don't let your dreams diminish, nor your fables crumble! Keep dreaming, for by that you're still growing, the bigger you dream the more you are liable and expected to achieve later! And that really is growth, isn't it?!!!

Inbox Humor: Is Hell Exothermic or Endothermic?

I'm currently busy studying, and that's why I haven't been able to post a new blogpost today so far, but here's just a funny article I once read that I found saved in my bookmarks. I'm working on a new post (taking pics and stuff for it, brainstorming and arranging ideas) so that I may post it soon enshallah (hopefully today or tomorrow)!

Enjoy (it's a bit corny in case you do mind :D)

Inbox Humor: Is Hell Exothermic or Endothermic?

As you study for exams, remember its not the quantity it's the quantity. And remember there is no substitute for pure unadulterated bull

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Dr. Schambaugh, of the University of Oklahoma School of Chemical Engineering, Final Exam question for May of 1997. Dr. Schambaugh is known for asking questions such as, "why do airplanes fly?" on his final exams. His one and only final exam question in May 1997 for his Momentum, Heat and Mass Transfer II class was: "Is hell exothermic or endothermic? Support your answer with proof."

Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law or some variant. One student, however, wrote the following:

"First, We postulate that if souls exist, then they must have some mass. If they do, then a mole of souls can also have a mass. So, at what rate are souls moving into hell and at what rate are souls leaving? I think we can safely assume that once a soul gets to hell, it will not leave.

Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for souls entering hell, let's look at the different religions that exist in the world today. Some of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, then you will go to hell. Since there are more than one of these religions and people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all people and souls go to hell. With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in hell to increase exponentially.

Now, we look at the rate of change in volume in hell. Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in hell to stay the same, the ratio of the mass of souls and volume needs to stay constant. Two options exist:

1. If hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter hell, then the temperature and pressure in hell will increase until all hell breaks loose.
2. If hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until hell freezes over.

So which is it? If we accept the quote given to me by Theresa Manyan during Freshman year, "that it will be a cold night in hell before I sleep with you" and take into account the fact that I still have NOT succeeded in having sexual relations with her, then Option 2 cannot be true...Thus, hell is exothermic."

The student, Tim Graham, got the only A.

Let's start!

Now that my blogging experience is probably floating somewhere around a value of nil, I think I have to enrich that page with a bit more content!

Umm..... there's a lot to be said for sure, you probably have no idea who I am, am not sure if I know everything about blogger.com or even if I've got what it takes to be a weblogger! That's why I'll start my first trial as if I were a long-time blogger and already used to it!

That post will mainly tackle a today's experience (as many blogs do) and I'll just discuss it, in this case, it's a music video I've watched today.

One thing you probably don't know about me yet, is that am a devoted (at least that's what I profess) Christian, and a huge fan of Christian music! It also happens to be that Casting Crowns are one of my all-time favorite bands. I mainly and predominantly appreciate their work for the message it contains, the contemporary worship music it adopts with some strays of getting into rock/country and other non-pop genres! All-in-all they're a great band, strongly admired by myself along with many others (I suppose)!

Normally, I've sure listened to their latest album, and have added it to my library -without hesitation-. Casting Crown's problem is that they never release a "favorite" album, I mean, every album of theirs is different in a way or another, and for some reason it's quite difficult, rather impossible, to compare their albums and pick a favorite out of the bunch! At least that's how it goes for me! Yet, that could very much be because that their albums contain that much great music that you can't chose one album over the other, nor sacrifice playing "Lifesong" in your player without adding "Who am I" to the playlist! Got my point?!

"The Altar and the Door" then is a need-to-get album, I don't find it as impressive as their debut self-titled "Casting Crowns," but it's a great one nonetheless. The songs on the album have shown how much more mature they've got than for example the seemingly monotonous "Lifesong." The music has developed too, with more versatility than their previous projects, again featuring more orchestral and country music playing than before. Two things to notice, the rather annoying repeated use of speech in the middle of the songs as in: "The World is Alive" & "What this World Needs." The other thing is the pretty much successful chance given to Megan with more of her vocals to be present throughout the album, giving it a more choir-like sound, Megan's voice has been much appreciated specially on the song "I know You're There."

Anyways, am not meaningfully satisfying my purpose of this post by reviewing the whole album, I should get back to our main issue here, the music video. Many of you people reading that post may have never heard of Casting Crowns, and sure not of the songs mentioned, so we'll just talk about the music video and get the task done! :D

In order to make the blog more interactive, I'd rather discuss something that you all can understand and comprehend. Posted right here is the video, it's of the song "Slow Fade," one of the best on the album, and of Casting Crown's best of all time!

I'm facing technical problems with uploading the vids right now, so I'll post links to them on youtube instead for the time being

Casting Crowns - The Altar and the Door - Slow Fade

Now that you've watched the video I can confidently talk about it!

As a typical CC(Casting Crowns)'s vid, it displays the whole band in a typical shooting of the band performing with a story played miscellaneously in the background except for the scenes provided of Mark Hall walking alone down the street and through the hall. Also the skit is quite expected, talking about a family (as most of their vids) going through a hard time, showing how desperate, angry, confused and fearful people can get when all they hold onto fails, things like love, trust, passion and compassion now mean nothing as the bonds between us would break.

Well, the video is to be considered from two facets, the technical part, and the Practical (social and spiritual) side.

The shooting of the video is very good, higher in quality measures than their previous videos, although maybe not as good as other videos by other bands of the current time, but that's not a big problem as long as it's clear and well-focused! The only problem I find is with the scenario, I usually don't like music videos with longer filming minutes before and after the song's real-time-play! I mean by that the introduction and the brief conversation at its end; although I have to admit it was quite meaningful and touching, and it stressed quite well on the meaning of the song and on describing the situations that the featured family have been through. The visual effects were typical flashback (rewind) of various parts of the video (like the breaking of the picture frame and the glass of bear). I would have expected more from a prominent band like CC, but it was quite well-going with the song's meaning and general theme behind the words, so I would consider it a good choice, specially in the part where Mark was walking down the street with everyone going backwards which was kind of cool!

That leaves us with commenting on the other side of the video, which is the emotional, personal, social, behavioral and spiritual impacts it has on its viewers. The video was very touching as a matter of fact, specially the conversation in the end of the vid between the girl and her dad which's left me very admiring for the whole thing. I think the song itself is quite good, very meaningful and true. Personally, I'd add the tag "People never crumble in a day" to my favorite quotes' list, as it's very right. I've once read: "Dogs are animals of habit," but I found out that we are too! Men don't adopt one-off changes, we demand huge talk-into-s and persuasive logical reasons to do this or that. Our choices are based on what we believe, and our beliefs need long time to be developed! If the guy ever recognized the impact of his extra-marital relationship with his work-colleague, if he considered that there always is a point of no return in every single deed we do ( when he gets to love that woman more than his family and all that is true in his life), maybe none of that would have happened. Maybe he'd had the time to listen to his wife, her love-needs. His son, and monitor, consult and help him in his misery, doubt and state of being lost. His little girl, let her feel more secure, teach her about life, and of God, be comforting to her, and looking after her needs. God is not a dominant god, although he's got full authority, rule and power over us and even the whole universe; but He still is a good, loving, just God, that He's given us the chance and opportunity to chose our ways. Many times we're very unreliable in doing so, that's why we need His assistance, that's why when you ask God to help you, He may not eliminate the difficulties facing you, nor make you change your decision; but in a way or another, He'll make sure that no matter what happened, it's for your best! Paul writes in Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him," an alternative translation reads: "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God." So no matter where you are, what you're doing, when or how will the results of that choice or the other affect you, you have to know that there's a power that's greater than ours, a hand that holds the foundations of the earth! and in those we trust, hope, and find reassurance!

Finally, I want to say that as I've said before, that weblog is basically meant for means of finding interest in something other than studying, so please, I know that many people might pass by that blog, who are not necessarily Christian, and my thoughts, reviews might be against, or not going along well with their beliefs, that's why I ask you to read my blog, get use of whatever might be useful, and just ignore whatever you don't like as it was never meant for anyone's offense! I just want to say that am a Christian, and being affected by that nature, my beliefs would be reflected in my posts, not just this one, so if it did happen, don't let it annoy you! Thanks a lot anyways for reading that far :D would appreciate your comments

I'll leave you with a video of the making of the song previously discussed:

More about this weblog!

The description space offered by the website was a bit less than I expected, so here's what I've written initially in the description box:

Studying is boring! we all know that for sure! That's why I've decided on creating my own blog, basically so that I can find something to do when am over-bored, but also to help me get more interested in what's happening around so that I can write about it over here. I've been introduced to the blogging trend on various occasions but I've never really considered blogging myself until today, specially after downloading the Windows Live Writer! Here I shall write about whatever I desire, no limits, doesn't have to be consistent, nor that meaningful; as I've just mentioned, the main aim I might be able to achieve through that blog is consuming time, so don't let yourself have the chance of being offended, over-amused or even concerned with whatever I've typed here!
Thanks for passing by anyways, and the more I post, the more you read, and the more days go by, the more you get to know me, my intentions, goals and values!